We are a good team doing a very reluctant task.
I have fallen into a black hole of despair
Beyond depression
This abyss
Has left me wondering where I went
But I’m not the one with a brain disease
So it’s weird…
Sometimes the Hubs and I feel like we’ve lost our minds
While caring for someone who is losing his
It’s the last thing I want to do
But oddly enough, it’s the first thing I want to do because I have no choice. And I love him and I know it’s the right thing even though Alzheimer’s is the last thing I would ever wish on a person.
Comfort
Encourage
Problem-solve
Discover
Feed
Understand
Restore
Calm
Those are first places in my heart
But here I am doing the last things
Removing rotting food from a fridge
Counting pills to help prevent a medical emergency
Cleaning poo off a toilet seat for the millionth time
Being afraid of what’s going to happen next.
Abba, Father!
There’s so much more…I’ll save it for next time.
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My Awesome Olive Shoots 
Alzheimers is so hard. I know. I’m sorry you’re dealing with this. But remember God will bless you and give you all the strength you need. Lean on Him. (I know you are) With God, you can do so much more than you knew was possible! (I know firsthand!) Hugs!
Lisa, you probably thought I dropped off the face of the earth. Sometimes it feels that way. I am continually amazed at how the Lord is providing for us in ways we never imagined. He is faithful and true! Hugs right back atcha!
What you are experiencing is certainly difficult. May God give you the strength to continue every minute of the day you care for your loved one.
Yes Colline, it is a huge ordeal and we are just in disbelief at the amount of trials we are experiencing. I think we will never be the same after this and maybe that’s a good thing. Thank you for your kind words.
We lost the last ten years of my grandmother’s life to the abyss of Alzheimers. It’s a harrowing time. You’re showing that love is an action and not just a feeling–that’s a legacy that even Alzheimer’s can’t steal away.
I’m sorry you have firsthand knowledge of this experience. I really like how you said that love is an action, that’s what we are doing our best to accomplish. I have so much to write about this journey but there’s not anytime to do so. I appreciate your compassion very much, thank you Beth!
Cindy, I am aching for you and praying for you. All my love —
Bless you, Meredith. In many ways I feel the Lord moving and directing this, I know you can appreciate what it’s like navigating into a new world. Love you too!
Praying for you! May God continue to give you the grace and strength you need for each day. Blessings!
Thank you Barbie! I know we’re not the only ones who have traveled this difficult road! Bless you as well!
Hang in there sister. You are a good daughter in law.
Thank you, friend. I’m trying my best and asking the Lord to fill in all the rest! Love you!
God bless you and your husband. You have a big task and it doesn’t let up. I hope I never get as close to it as you are and I honor you for what you’re doing.
Sandra, you are so right! I told my husband today we just need to expect it to get worse and accept that. Thank you for your words of encouragement, it is much appreciated!
Praying for you today as I read your words and story here. Praying that you will feel Him near.
Thank you Tonya! There is comfort in knowing others are lifting us up in prayer. It means a lot to me! Bless you!