Five minute Friday – last

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We are a good team doing a very reluctant task.

We are a good team doing a very reluctant task.

I have fallen into a black hole of despair

Beyond depression

This abyss

Has left me wondering where I went

But I’m not the one with a brain disease

So it’s weird…

Sometimes the Hubs and I feel like we’ve lost our minds

While caring for someone who is losing his

It’s the last thing I want to do

photo copy 3But oddly enough, it’s the first thing I want to do because I have no choice. And I love him and I know it’s the right thing even though Alzheimer’s is the last thing I would ever wish on a person.

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Encourage

Problem-solve

Discover

Feed

Understand

Restore

Calm

Those are first places in my heart

But here I am doing the last things

Removing rotting food from a fridge

Counting pills to help prevent a medical emergency

Cleaning poo off a toilet seat for the millionth time

Being afraid of what’s going to happen next.

Abba, Father!

There’s so much more…I’ll save it for next time.

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16 thoughts on “Five minute Friday – last

  1. Alzheimers is so hard. I know. I’m sorry you’re dealing with this. But remember God will bless you and give you all the strength you need. Lean on Him. (I know you are) With God, you can do so much more than you knew was possible! (I know firsthand!) Hugs!

    • Lisa, you probably thought I dropped off the face of the earth. Sometimes it feels that way. I am continually amazed at how the Lord is providing for us in ways we never imagined. He is faithful and true! Hugs right back atcha!

    • Yes Colline, it is a huge ordeal and we are just in disbelief at the amount of trials we are experiencing. I think we will never be the same after this and maybe that’s a good thing. Thank you for your kind words.

  2. We lost the last ten years of my grandmother’s life to the abyss of Alzheimers. It’s a harrowing time. You’re showing that love is an action and not just a feeling–that’s a legacy that even Alzheimer’s can’t steal away.

    • I’m sorry you have firsthand knowledge of this experience. I really like how you said that love is an action, that’s what we are doing our best to accomplish. I have so much to write about this journey but there’s not anytime to do so. I appreciate your compassion very much, thank you Beth!

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