Five minute Friday – fight


photo 2Today I’m fighting temptation

I’m fighting dis- couragement

I’m fighting irritation

Furthermore, I’m fighting embar-rassment that I’m fighting temptation, discourage- ment and irritation

After all, it’s only a foot

And I realize other people have much greater struggles they are battling so how pathetic of me, truly

The doctor told me I must keep the boot on my foot for another seven weeks and I can’t drive for at least the next three weeks.

Based on the surgery and the fact that he also removed two screws from my foot, I could easily break my foot if I wasn’t compliant. This wasn’t what I wanted to hear.

Truth is, I had only been wearing the boot for about 15% of the time. I even walked in to the doctor’s office carrying my right shoe, that’s how confident I was that it would be back on my foot. I’d just hit my stride and resume my normal activities. Wrong. My fight with myself rages on.

My constant companion - the ever present foot boot

My constant companion – the ever present foot boot

I’m not the miracle patient with an instant fix.

Most of us aren’t and that’s not easy to admit. Today I’m fighting that reality and the desire to rush what is going to take a long time (at least in my mind) to heal.

What comes to mind when you think about the word “fight?” This was my five minute rendition of the musings in my head. Thanks to Lisa Jo Baker for the awesome word prompt! 5minutefriday

12 thoughts on “Five minute Friday – fight

  1. I can only imagine this agony! To not be able to move your body the way you are use to, to not be able to drive yourself…you know you’ll make it to the other side but of course you’re feeling discouraged and wanting to fight!

    • Thank you Sabrina! I am not the most patient person in the world and yes, not being able to bend my toes or stretch my foot or push a gas pedal are little things I took for granted. I appreciate your compassion and the time you took to bless me!

  2. I have a friend, she is very ill and has been for a good 5 years now. She has taught me something about our struggles. She says frequently that we can not compare our struggles. “oh you have so much more than I to deal with…” because when you are in the pit of YOUR struggle you are exactly there – in the pit of it. It does not mean that you are less aware of other peoples struggles, or if theirs seem bigger means that you don’t have the RIGHT to feel discouraged etc.

    The lesson we must learn from our struggles, when we are in the pit of them, is how to crawl out of the pit. It does not matter that others are “worse off”, your lesson is still the same. And from what I’ve seen, YOU do great at crawling out.

    So Miss keep fighting, and keep crawling (no connection was intended btw to your bum foot -lol). Your lessons will make it easier the next time you struggle. 🙂 Happy new year, friend.

    • Thank you for helping me not dismiss the suffering I’m going through. I find it hard to find the honest way to say I’m struggling in comparison to what others are experiencing. Oh, and btw, I have crawled around the house. Very attractive. NOT! I sure do appreciate your support and friendship! Bless you!

    • Thank you so much! As you well know, there are other afflictions which are incredibly difficult so that can make it challenging for me to fuss about my situation. The Lord is my ever present help in times of trouble. Great to hear from you again!

  3. Ouch so not fun to be immobilized. Although me as a knitter, my first thoughts if it happened to me was – Here’s the perfect excuse to finish that sweater that I started back in May… Make good use of your time with the boot!
    Thanks for leaving me comment for my first FMF post!

    • Thanks Natalie! I love to sew but I can’t put my foot on the pedal but I like your idea! I am reading a 1000 page book and I’m making progress on it, maybe I’ll finish it by the time I’m “free!” Congrats on your first FMF post, keep writing!

  4. I feel for you. I had foot surgery a few years ago, and it is not fun. The only good thing about it was that during my recovery my husband and I traveled to Russia to meet our daughter, and I didn’t feel guilty at all for riding in the beeping airport cart!

    • Wow, you are a super woman! Traveling to Russia following foot surgery to pick up a daughter – you are invincible! I know you have been fighting other health challenges and life changes, you are a resilient woman, Army Strong to be sure! Great hearing from you!

  5. I spent a couple weeks on crutches in college and I think the hardest thing for me was having to depend on others. It was my left foot but I couldn’t even drive because my little pickup truck had a clutch. I do not like depending on others. Yet I know that God wants us to do sometimes. Make a list and think of all the productive things you can do while sitting! 🙂

    • I think you are on to something, dear Lisa! It’s interesting how many people have a “foot” story and what a humbling experience it was for them. Crutches in college sounds impossible for many reasons and the whole inability of driving is such a challenge. I’ll try to come up with a list. It seems very small at this point. Bless you, sweet friend.

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